It's

Heartbreaking to have to fight this feeling.

Heartbreaking to wish I could talk to you again.

Heartbreaking to wish you'd text or call.

Heartbreaking to wonder if you're happy or sad...

Or okay.

Heartbreaking to know that my number is probably gone from your phone.

Heartbreaking to know that there are people who want me to love them.

Heartbreaking to know I can't force my feelings upon anyone.

Heartbreaking to wake up each day to move on.

Heartbreaking to find myself thinking of you when I'm trying hard not to.

Heartbreaking to realize I tell myself I'm over you when I'm not.

Heartbreaking to have to try, regardless of.

Heartwrenching to tell myself I mean nothing in your eyes.

-from someone's blog, not stating who. but if you knew, i am just sharing the same feeling as her, right now.

writer, i hope you dont mind.