you know what i found something that i find it very useful. i dont know whether it will be useful to you. but to me it is. i got it off from a show "恶魔在身边" . then i was thinking in the car then this few things came into my mind.

"whenever i feel like crying,
i would want to wait till on rains.
because whenever i cry,
i wouldnt want anyone to know that i am crying.
i would run out and stand under the rain,
and cry out every thing that is bothering in my heart.
i will cry as hard as i want,
because nobody will know,
whether i am crying or not.
the rain pouring on to me,
will hide my tears,
and it too will hide my sorrows and pain."

but whenever i run away from home, there is always someone worying about me. i don want him to worry about me anymore. i promised him that i wouldnt run away from home anymore. i dont want to break it because i dont wan to break his heart. because I LOVE HIM. deeply. all i would do is run to him and cry my heart out. because i know he will be there for me. besides him who will be there for me, GOD will always be with me even after death.

THEY ARE FINALLY OUT OF SUSPENSION!
THANKS TO GOD. I PRAYED REALLY HARD THAT THEY WILL BE OUT OF SUSPENSION! AND REALLY THEY ARE. HE ACTUALLY ANSWERED MY PRAYERS! THANKS DADDY!

just came home from supper. SUPPER TOTALLY ROCKS! had ice cream. double scoop! i wanted to go dailyscoop to have ice cream but my dad found a new place so we went there. the ice cream so so DARN good! i want to eat more. cheesecake ROCKS too! on the way there saw charlene and cherly in the car with their parents. going for dinner? so late. hahas. okay! now i am going CRAZY over that ice cream! I WAN MORE!

just came back from tuiton. so now do you get what i meant. having tuition practically EVERYDAY. these people are mad. asking me whether they can have tuition with me. what is this. when will i ever have my break. after the holidays ah? do you think i will have the time to like in my lalala land. no la. its a new term and its time for me to study AGAIN! get it. I HATE TUITIONS! so many tuition. my parents have the money man! i dont want tuition anymore. get rid of them! i dont mind chinese tuition. is just that some times i wouldnt want to go. so whats the piont of having tuiton. so get rid of all of them and soon I WILL BE FREE from tuition only. SIGH! but not free from those naggings. they are TOTALLY IRRITATING. when will they ever now how i felt with TUITIONS all over my head! i am going to hate that TUITION word forever! BLEAH!
last day of you people's suspension! MS LIM you gotta let them off okay! telling you again. and that will be your last warning! LET THOSE PEOPLE WHO ARE SITTING OUTSIDE YOUR DAMN OFFICE OFF. and DON YOU EVER EVER EXPELL THEM!

just came back from tuition to too long ago. and i tell you for sure! TUITION SUCKS LIKE HELL! i really hate tuition! and you know what i practicall have tuition everyday excpet of monday and sunday! what kind of holiday do i have hur?! it sucks having only a week of hoiliday! no time to go out even only once that was with da 7 dwarfs and three guys. so what. you think it would be enough for? NO! i want to go out more. holidays are for me to GO OUT and CATHCH UP WITH MY WORK. i know that. but i thin holidays are just too little for me. thats why i want more holidays for me to go out and catch more on my work. but who cares about hmwk man. i jus don feel like doing hmwk every time i just sit at my table and the work jus sat on my table like that. i just stare and dont do anything. DEN i will start to have naggings from blah blah. you know. just imagine HOW IRRITATING la. every day they will jus @%&*)&Q^&*%!#&. do i even care about their ^$&$(&^&%^&%#&*(%*. so noisy la. cant stand it. so i just got to sit on it. SIGH!can you ever believe it?! MS LIM still give people suspension during the holidays! wth! is this their holidays are going to be?! sitting outside you office doing dunno what! why cant jus let them off. like they did something wrong. and what for thinking of expelling those people. you will never know they have their own talents! they are humans man. AINT robots. they need to eat sleep and so on! just let them stay back in the school and let them study. JUST DON YOU EVER DESTROY THEIR TEENAGE LIFE! they are like still sec 3 where do you expect them to go. YOU GOTTA LET THEM OFF BY TOMORROW. and i dont want them to be expelled!