i heard that J is back from Mexico. for real this time. but for NS. why am i bothering about J now, when he doesnt even know me? or rather he forgot about me. -___- -----
i am tired already. been crying for 3 days straight. i dont know why the feeling of crying just comes back so suddenly. and i feel like crying more, seriously. its getting from bad to worse, really. sigh.
i dont know what you told spencer that day(Founder's Day dinner) or what spencer told you. i want to know, but i know you wont tell me. thats cos, you wouldnt even talk to me. even if i sms you, you wouldnt reply. as though my smses are free. i just find that its either you or him telling me lies. i dont know.
NAVI, i need you back. my days are just so grey without you. i just cant be myself everyday. its all a pretend, besides being with the dwarfs. you just completes me. you just meet all my wants and my needs.
i know saying all these are of no point. but if you say that, why did you even knock on my door? ):
and if you have all my photos(hundreds of them), did you even look at them? or you just let them rot? if you let them rot, why not just dump them into the bin? like what you said, there isnt a point anymore.
now, you know how my life is. happy now? no more irritating brat in your life. bet is better than no one else's life. reading my blog just tells you everything that is going on in my life. and i know you care, but why i cant i know yours too?
maybe, it's because we were too long together and didn't do enough to keep it there, that's why it faded away or, maybe he's just too busy and afraid of dragging me down. nette says that. but i really dont know. only he knows
please, i didnt felt so helpless and lonely. its painful too.
somehow, i just wish i could run away from things. but still i have to face it. sometimes, i want to run away from home to have time alone, but still i have to head home.
seriously, i just need to it.
boy, i love you still.
Friday 29 August 2008
> 9:51:00 pm.
told you! holidays are just going to get boring and MORE BORING! reminder > its a long holiday! TILL 12 OCT. can you believe it? sigh ):
at least is good! i could catch with my beauty sleep, and dramas, catch up with dwarfs. how i wish i could see him during his hols?! ROAR! ): ): ): sigh I DONT HAVE TO GO SCHOOL! cos i hate school so much to the extend that i really want to drop out of school! SCHOOL SUCKS SCHOOL SUCKS SCHOOL SUCKS! ): ): ):
brother left for some wierd camp. peace and quiet. FINALLY! puh-lease, i wanted him out of the house like long ago. stupid pest. he just making me go crazy at home. just find him super irritating la! he instills me with names like, useless, stupid etc etc. yeah la, BIG BROTHER. i am useless and stupid can? worse, he calls me in public! SADDENING. i wanted to cry lah! sigh, is he even my brother?!
he is so much like mum. who discourages me at things. cant really take it though. but I CANT DO ANYTHING! ----
TEACHERS DAY IN FMSS TODAY! wanted to enter the hall, but was a little to scary with eyes staring at you. thousands of them! scary. went in only during the ending part. is like "whats the point?"
went to nette's place after visiting the teachers. correction TEACHER without an"S" thats cos we only see mr ganesan. OUR BELOVED!
i just went there to eat and sleep and watch a little of teevee and movie. i was just way to tired. -----
talked to ninja tutle online. he asked me if i am going for chalet. ANOTHER PERSON! please, people. just stop asking me this question! I DONT KNOW WHETHER I AM GOING! FINALLE! just very indecisive okay? if i dont go, i wont ask back for the money. just take it that i sponsor you guys okay? -----
last night, i cried, cried real hard ): its seems like a long time since i last cried. been thinking alot, with no conclusion! ): thats bad. nah, just thinking of all the memories. how sweet, how lovely. that leads to no conclusion to anything. just hugged tigger so tightly. and i wish i could hug you just as tight too.
somehow, its seems like you are avoiding me. or is it me who is not understanding enough? ): -----
i just cant wait to fly off. i just need to get away, or rather, I WANT TO RUN AWAY. but just why cant we fly off earlier? longer break. I NEED IT.
i rather fly away and stay there forever. whats the point of staying here when nothing is left here for me to look forward to? even if there is(navi), whats the point?
nobody knows where i will be flying to. nobody will bother about where i am going to fly to. if those who know, please dont say anything out. i dont want anybody to say that i am a rich kid. cos i am not!
NO ONE WILL EVER BOTHER! ):
i need beer, i need to drink, i need to get drunk. {aint the first time drinking beer anyway} or sake will be better.
boy, all i need is YOU!
Tuesday 26 August 2008
> 6:45:00 pm.
been out today. with mum. with that teacher, i mean photography teacher. actually wasnt in a mood to go out at all. but, sigh. ):
walked all the way from home to westmall to meet mum for lunch. SUPER HOT CAN! ): wanted to take a bus instead of walking. but stupid 173 wont come at all. so i JUST WALK THERE! i was late la! very late.
ate subway. COOKIES ARE LOVE. chocolate chips.
trained down to cityhall. AND AGAIN, WALK! to esplanade to merlion area. my legs were giving way la. lazy to walk, thats all. sigh. ):
went up to the roof esplanade. then we headed off to Singapore Flyer. and again WALK! please, i was half dead. the sun is making my eyes close. my legs are breaking off. TIRED!
Singapore Flyer was kinda cool. i told mum that i will sit on it 3 years later. WHEN ALL THE CRANES ARE GONE. better view of Singapore. now with all the cranes, what do you see? CRANES! and MORE CRANES.
bused home after that. wanted to take train 'cos of train concession. mama being a lazy mum, dont want to walk back to cityhall to take train. ):
got my beauty sleep in the bus. YAY! finally. woke up and saw the sky was awfully black! and i know its going to pour soon. legs were super soft, i cant even walk properly. I BUMPED INTO MUM. and i wanted to roll down the staircase!
went to vcd rental shop. and i rented ISWAK2. since its hols and exams are over, I CAN WATCH NOW! yay. -----
talked to wk online. he wants me to go for chalet so badly! for what? BULLY ME! -__-
but the point is, if i cant click well with the rest of them, why go? if i go, will i enjoy? i dont think i will enjoy at all. all i will do is, EMO! ): -----
i just wish to see you, badly. those eyes, that smile.
now, talking to him, is like talking to 4 big walls. he wouldnt reply me. sms-ed halfway, he wont reply anymore. am i a person that you hate so much to the extend of not talking to me, at all? if i am, please, just tell. i know it will hurt, but just tell me.
questions left unanswered. you left me, being so naive. you left me, allowing me to ask for more. you left me, being alone.
if only things could turn back to way things were before, wouldnt it be better? sigh. all you would say is just a "SORRY", but will it ever heal the heart?
you closed the door already, what have i to do? i want to close that door too, but can i do it? the point is, i dont want to.
i know i am a idiot at this, but i really want to give it one more try. i will wait. even if its painful.
i love you still, deep down. i wont use the word "forever", a word just too big for now. but seriously, i mean it!
i want to walk that Southern Ridges and sit on the Singapore Flyer with YOU! every time i look at it, that dream just shatters right in front of my eyes. -----
boring week ahead. i want to go out. CAN SOMEONE GO OUT WITH ME?
Monday 25 August 2008
> 5:02:00 pm.
180808monday
busy studying for exams. was super last minute la. nothing really got into my head when i study. sigh. but al least i tried to study. i was actually wondering how to study java. it was fully memory work. exam papers were all standard. so just read through. bad day though. sigh.
190808tuesday
went to school early to study java with the rest of them. tried memorizing all the work. siao la. its alot. trying to understand is worse too. just memorize la. didnt want to care much already. i was busy thinking of something else la. seriously. sigh. 2bucks nuggets for lunch. how unhealthy! ):
it was time to head for examination hall! scary can. is like O levels lah. maybe worse. walked in, my heart jumping out already. ): my table was nearing the front. table 5, so ITS THE FRONT! its worse. last time was table 12, now 5! SCARY MAN!
didnt actually know what i was writing. i just write whatever i could remember. some questions, i just wrote rubbish. i dont know whether right or wrong. I JUST WRITE! suddenly, left one question, i was thinking of the question. i was thinking of something else. maybe others will know what. I WROTE HIS NAME ON MY PAPER! for i dont know what reason. just that its the other way round. how dumb can! i dont know why i wrote his name la k. i cant think anymore, i dont know what to write on the paper. and i had to leave. really had to leave. the pain was so unbearable. excruciating pain. i cant even stand up straight.
on the way back home, i just counldnt take it anymore. so painful. ):
STUDY FOR COS!
200808wednesday
cos paper. decided not to go early to study with the rest. went down to school a little later. studied at home and in the train and before the paper started.
i forgot what i memorize, so just try my best write out those i remembered. sigh! bad paper. everyone was like "die la die la" same here.
decided not to have lunch with the rest. so i headed back home on my own again. YES,AGAIN.
210808thursday
went to nettes place to study. but we didnt even touch our books!
blockquote from nette.
today has been a veryvery fun day, but extremely unproductive. still, i'm thankful. being surrounded by my dwarfs lately made me realise just how much i miss their company, and how easily they can set me right. spending time with dorcas today just reminded me so much of the fairfield days, and it just cheered me up instantly. we talked about all the stupid, childish things we used to do, and did all the stupid, childish things all over again anyway, check out all the zi lian photos dorcas took of herself at my house! she so funny you know. she didn't even wake me up when she reached me house. she went straight underneath my bed to catch up one HER OWN beauty sleep. HAHA! so when the frog prince called me around ten to one, and i realised the time, i wondered why dorcas hadn't called me yet. when i talked and everything, she didn't respond, so i thought i was alone in my room! after i hung up, i discovered that i received NINE messages. two from dorcas, and the rest from froggy. one of dorcas' messages was, "NETTE! wake up! dorcas waiting for you. in your room. downstairs. lol" and i was like, "HUH?! sure not!" i looked down and i COULDN'T SEE EVEN A SINGLE STRAND OF HAIR! i thought she was trying to be funny, so i called her. goodness gosh, didn't hear the vibration and no ringtone either! i only realised that she was in my room when she said, "HELLO?" and i was so shocked! that stupid woman! haha. she said that she didn't say anything cause she was sleeping. and she picked up the phone knowing that it was me! stupid lar, boyfriend! hahahha!
she introduced me to a new anime called SHUGO CHARA!!! it's rocking, rocking cute! and veryveryvery funnyyyy! =D and we watched while eating our kfc lunch, which was really superrrr filling. check this out! tigger's watching toooo! my mum was so random. she suddenly gave me this pack of eyeshadow even though i don't use make up. we discovered the mirror and did this:
thanks nette! I WAS HAPPY TOO. just being with you is just so comfortable.
I LOVE YOU! {kicks norman away! (x}
220808friday
ROWING COMPETITION DAY!
woke up at like 5.30 and rush down to clementi at 6.45. in the end, only both yulian and i reached first. then ben. the rest was like later than us! ROAR. esp wenxi. she said 6.45, she herself late la!
took a taxi down to jalan buroh where the rowing associates is. we had to help the taxi driver find the way. cos, we all dont know the way. THANKS TO DORCAS SIN we made it there in less then 10 bucks! HEH. but actually the taxi driver said he went wrong way, so he off the meter. HOW NICE!
went on some floating platoon. super cool. get to hold the boat once. ONCE! i just love climbing up and down the divider. tried, suntanning! funnaye. tried sleeping too! i lie on the divider to suntan and sleep. but super hot, i cant take it anymore.
lunched there
walked out
walked to bus stop
bused to clementi
ate lunch again at sumo!
then head to nette's place
the four of us fell asleep in her room till 6.30! FUNNAYE!
230808saturday
home the whole day.
lunched with brother at westmall. BURGER KING. fatty!
came home and studied
sigh. its boring!
240808sunday
church ; membership class
came home and slept till 6.30.
what a pig la.
tried studying. useless.
TODAY
had math exam. was kinda good. can do. but not all. i dont understand the question! but i just try whatever they give la. sat for the whole 2 hours la. cant believe it. other papers was like after one and a half hours i walk out already.
class went to celebrate yukai's bday.
i didnt go. ): didnt tell my mother anyway. so, its best to head home.
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last tuesday, i told yulian i missed him and wrote this to me:
Hey girl, what is the matter you're crying your heart out again Don't lie girl, this was not some accident, your bruises they give you away. Your face sighs in shades of purple, your eyes a story of pain Walk away, you're worth more than he'll ever realize, baby walk away. Spare yourself this pain cant you see that he's not worth it? You're not mean to be treated this way, baby walk away. You say that you really love him, you say that he'll notice someday
But your face still sighs in the purple, your eyes tells a story of shame, walk away You're worth more than he'll ever realize baby walk away, spare yourself this pain, Cant you see that he's not worth it? You've been waiting for his love for so many years well girl, you may not live to see that day. baby walk away. your not meant to be treated this way. baby walk away. baby walk away. baby walk away.
i miss you and i love you, i really do
maybe those words that you use to love, is a hate now.
dont care whether you will read or not, i will still write. maybe till one day, it fades away. {maybe it wont and i dont want to}
i dont know. sigh ):
i cant help it, you just way to deep inside.
sigh, i just cant click well with the others nowadays
i really felt alone. worse than secondary school.
with dwarfs in other schools and was left alone by HIM!
everything just gone worse just within months. MONTHS!
I JUST HATE 2008! ):
i really want to say this to the whole congragation,
"You are the God whom i love and whom i want to follow"
but do i have the faith and confidence that this is the right time to go through this affirmation?
Saturday 23 August 2008
> 11:58:00 pm.
blogging nearing into midnight isnt a good thing okay! just way too tired, after dealing with the blogskin and stuff. as you can see, i have changed my blogskin. YES, AGAIN. thats cos, i wanted to play around with the codes. html codes are so much easier to read and understand la java codes are like can read but dont understand. thats stupid. really!
wont blog much, as its midnight. and i have church tomorrow. AND I GOT TO STUDY FOR C.MATH! i guess i just flung it and retake the module. ARH! i totally forgot integration can! sigh, i guess i just do whatever i can. just blame myself for not studying earlier. sigh, not disciplined enough. same old habit. BUT WHO CARE'S! IT'S ME! but somehow, i better change it. or it will get worse.
and PAP'S WORKING OVER NIGHT! sigh
will blog about the past week after math exam.
toodles, guys!
Sunday 17 August 2008
> 10:17:00 pm.
We're to the point of no return And along the way the only thing we've learned Is how to hurt each other {lyrics by Backstreet Boys - Something That I Already Know}
i know those word are true, through the things i am going through. but the point is if i love him that much, how could i ever going to let it go? stupid dramas will say "if you love that someone, you have to let the person" thats 'cos that person dont even love you, so you, of course have to let the person go.
Here I stand within your presence Longing for your touch A thousand days cannot compare To one day in your courts
Hold me now And never ever let me go My jesus, my precious saviour I'm forever yours {Lyrics by Planetshakers - I'm Forever Yours}
though i am not part of you anymore, i am still HIS i am still HIS right from the beginning.
The trouble is I can't get herHIM out of my mind When I close my eyes at night Who's gonna save me Now she'sHE'S gone The trouble is there's a part of me That still can't let go of herHIM memory And now I know what it is Love is what the trouble is {lyrics by Backstreet Boys - Trouble is}
maybe you would have stop reading. i dont know, cos you wouldnt tag anymore. still, i am going tell you this i still LOVE you. okay?
MAMA, I WANT TO HAVE SMALL GATHERING AT OUR PLACE! can i please please invite 7 dwarfs, ahem with friends, churchies?? {ahem refers to HANDSOME!}
Saturday 16 August 2008
> 11:13:00 pm.
things do change. sometimes i really wish that you will continue to tell me whats going on in your life. like we always do. but now, as friends. sometimes i really wish that you will continue to talk to me. like how you always do. but now, as friends.
to me, its hard being friends. too hard. but what am i to do? i cant really do much, but go with the flow.
now, i dont know why. its seems that so many things are troubling me. i just feel like crying all out. but who can cry to now? sometimes, i really wish i could cry it out to sweets{i dont know why i type this, but you are still} but, i know i cant. now, at this point of time, i really want to cry it out all to God, for he will provide. things going through in life, right now. isnt the way i wanted at all.
peiying knew something was wrong. she asked. she was there to listen. though she wasnt that close to me, but i knew she cares alot. THANKS.
sometimes, things happen for some reason. sometimes, you wouldnt even know the reason.
after listening to that song by HONG JUNYANG 难道 i really stood by the the window and cried it all out. cos i could really feel my heart cracking into two pieces. and everything seems so grey now. i couldnt erase anything that relates to you. even if i try hard to not think about, its just temporary.
always wanting to say those words to you. but the situation now, its hard. sry, mum. i have to say this. i still love him. and its hard for me to let go.
now, i have to start learning to be understanding and stop hurting people. i feel like i am hurting people without noticing it. SO SO SO SORRY! REALLY! ):
God, teach me to be understanding. teach me to be strong. teach me to overcome things with a positive mind. sometimes i just feel so weak, it feels like i am going to fall anytime. Lord, help me to stand firm in any circumstances. no matter how difficult each obstacle i go through in life, teach me to seek inner peace and go through things with a clear positive mind.
Friday 15 August 2008
> 10:44:00 pm.
OMGOSH! i really feel like getting this phone!
dont you just find it so so so cool?
but it seems like i also want to get sony ericsson phone
I WANT EVERYTHING LAH!
this week's kinda busy cum slack week
been studying a little. yes, a little. i am so not prepared to majors la. which is like next week!
and i really want to take jap can one of my electives. and i have to pass all to get it. if not, please stop at french. cos i actually regretted puting thinking and solving as my third choice. mum told me its good for me , 'cos i dont think alot. SO DEMORALISING CAN! but still, i should have placed german as my third choice. sigh. selections are over and there isnt a point moaning over it. sigh. BIG MISTAKE THOUGH!
monday110808
stayed home and studied. kinda productive though. but get a little too distracted with the lappy sometimes. so it was whole day studying and using the lappy. nothing much. at least i got some work done. AND THATS GOOD.
tuesday120808
met up with nette and yulian at jurong east to get some work done. we were suppose to meet at 10 but we all woke up late. so we met at 10.30. fortunately, yulian and i got a seat, when nette calls and wanted breakfast. so we had to say bye bye to that seat. so we had breakfast at LJS thats cos it was already 11 and macs doesnt sell breakfast anymore. they miss big breakast. i ate it a week ago! we ended starting work at about 12. but still fiddling with lappy for a while. nette went back to school for test, and would come back later. i studied one chapter and yulian one line before we went for lunch at KFC. we shared the variety value meal and large chicken popcorn. okay, we look super poor can! one burger, one drumstick, two prawn nuggets, cheese fries and large chicken popcorn. went back to library to find our seats, cos our sear was taken away after we placed our bags at yulian's friends table. yulian was like"huh! so fast!" in the end, we sitted at her friend's table while they went for lunch. please, they went clementi lah! make us wait so long. the both of us didnt even study. we were like surfing the net! for phones. soon i left when they came back. nette back when i left too. but didnt get to see her. it seems like is isnt productive at all!!!
plan for wed: wear fmss pe shirt, school skirt and shoes. head for fmss to study.
wednesday130808
head down to fmss in school sports attire. i look super funny! both yulian and i tried to get the uncle to let us in to study in learn@fairfield. but uncle is just too mean to let us in. we dressed ourselves to hid our identity leh! still cannot. ): so we headed to nette's house. as always when disaster struck.
supposed to study. in the end, WE DIDNT TOUCH OUR BOOKS! and this is what we did:
#can be enlarge!
as usual, this what we always do when we all get bored.
THIS IS HOW MUCH I LOVE MY TIGGER OKAY!
and how much i love my BIG BIG TIGER
headed down to raffles place for robinson's job interview
in the end, we didnt got. looking at the schedule.
both of them cant make it, only me. i didnt want to go alone.
so walked over to capital building to check that sport shop.
both yulian and i wrote that application form. yeah.
trained home with yulian while nette went to her friend's house.
was totally drained. with all the laughing and walking.
and look at the weather, HORRIBLE!
thursday140808
stayed home. tried studying. yeah, nothing got in. stupid.
met mum at jurong point to look at FEB29 bags.
daddy needs a new bag. and i thought of getting the leather one. but mum said"your father ah, put so many things inside. dont know what he put in. always so fat. you think can fit everything not? i think he needs a broader one!" okay, mum was right. in the end, we didnt buy. -__-
walked over to jurong medical centre. mum had check up. so i followed.
when everything ends, we had to walk back to jurong point to get littlefella his food. once i walked out, there is this wierd couple, DATING OUTSIDE MEDICAL CENTRE. outside. wierd ppl. lucky i didnt look back and see his school badge. if not, i think i will get beaten up for looking. scary to think about it.
and i ate OLDCHANGKEE for lunch. unhealthy though, but its nice.
today150808
went back to fmss for gb with yulian. yeah, helped out a bit during squad time. dont know what my squad sia. monkeys. they talk so much rubbish and i was thinking nothing will come out. and when i look at it, smart ppl!
went for some briefing that mr ow needed help in. what rowing competion?! i dont know. i just go la. half listening. half not. was busy thinking of other stuff.
played with yulian's psp. DJMAX! while walking her out to the gate. in the end i also never walk her out. i went straight to ms reena's classroom for badgework. PAULINE IS SUPER NOISY CAN! cannot stop one lor.
ended. when to dover to get food. super hungry. sw treated me drink. cos i really needed one.
somehow, i find the song of the lyrics seems like what i am going through now. nice song though. listen and look out for lyrics. those dont know chinese, sry. the song is in chinese.
the only difference was i didnt delete the number
Monday 11 August 2008
> 9:41:00 pm.
sometimes i really wanted to know why. i am just so curious to know about everything.
can you please tell me why do you still care so much? yes, i love the way you care and i want it to continue. but the point is, why?
can you also tell me why still keep the photos? i wish you could keep it for as long as possible. but soon, you will have to get rid of those.
you said you still care. but i dont see why cant you talk me first instead of me? it makes me think even deeper, those six steps i wrote.
i wish you could continue to draw for me. your drawings are the best. its long since you drew for me. its long since i see your drawings.
trying so hard to be strong. but inside i feel weak. trying so hard to smile. but all the more i feel even worse trying so hard not to cry. but its just too painful trying so hard to not think about. but its just too difficult trying so hard to move on. but i am just too confused
didnt know going through this, was so tough and painful. you should know its hard too. four years. dont you think its hard?
i wish there would be a happy ending but who knows? the happy ending might just stop here and will never ever continue.
no matter how hard i cry, no matter how much i cry, things will never be the same as before.
some times i actually asked myself, did i actually regret getting into a relationship which could last this long? my answer: yes and no
yes, why? i didnt know this kind of thing would happen. which i actually didnt want it to happen to me.though it happen to him, somehow or rather we got back. cos i knew i wasnt so sure about it. and right now, when i was kinda sure, this happens right smack in front of me.
no,why? meeting this guy was rather fortunate. loving me for four years. and yes, i love him for four years too and please, i am still counting. he didnt actually stop for once. he being so understanding and was able to tolerate all my nonsense and anger. i guess, he's one of a kind. i just find him a cutie, cos he does things that could really cheer me up. doing silly stuff, just to see me smile. was there when i needed him so badly, also when i was in trouble. even when i had problems, he was just there to give me a listening ear. he was there, when i cried, real hard. he is just my little sunshine in my life. its like he completes me.
now, no more sunshine. its just me,myself and i now.
Lord, grant me strength in me to carry on.
sometimes you only realise how important things are once its gone somehow, time will tell.
thanks alot alex, for that talk that night.
Sunday 10 August 2008
> 10:54:00 pm.
>click to enlarge
you guys really are my SUNSHINES in my life thanks alot! for making my life so colourful like the rainbow! maybe more than the rainbow.
------ today is sunday. as usual, went to church. oh please, my brother rushed me out of the house can. i havent really dressed up and he was "FAT ASS, faster lah! late already." he always says that and i am already used to it. mum left for early service 'cos she has meeting after that. so i had to train down with brother. saw leti while walking out of the train station. so we walked together to church. we were all late, and still we were walking so slow like no one's business.
walked into khuen hall with leti after having a stick of fishball. yeah, thats my breakfast! ): sad hur! they had already started worship. like of course, i said i was late lah! had welcoming as usual after worship. i was sitting next to lois, i shall call her my twin. 'cos many said we look a like. okay, even passport photos looks the same. getting back point. yeah, we sitting next to each other, so we started talking. i will keep those small and tiny.
she: {first question} are you still with erm... that guy! oh yeah. IVAN! hur? me: erm no. over already. and i cried for two hours that day and and a few other days. she: when?! dont sad kaes? me: two weeks ago {exactly!} she: dont sad! you two how long? me: 4 years she: WHA! okay. why hur? me: he lor she: okay. understand. different school mah. DONT SAD ALREADY! me: (smiles back, but still feeling sad)
after welcoming and so on, was cell. mark has new materials for us. but i find it rather deep. so i asked for somthing simpler. we had nice talks during cell today. today's cell was rather slack lah.
service. sat with the usual. was mostly talking. but i did listen! guys: i guess i am alright okay? dont have to worry too much! yep!
mum went for briefing for brother's mission trip to cambodia. i want to go so badly but there is still school. how irritating! I WANT TO GO MISSION TRIP TO CAMBODIA!
lunched and shopping with mum! yay! bought long sleeves from cotton on! love long sleeves!
came home and rested and was out again for dinner with the whole family. went to have ice cream at ice cream gallery. awesome! strawberry cheesecake and lychee. joked around. okay, mum loves my jokes. i dont know why. she says i am not good in anything but only good at jokes. cos, brother heard a song playing in ice cream gallery while eating. then he stopped eating with his in a wierd position. so i said, " what you doing? meditating ah?!" mum just started laughing after that. all i could was laugh with her. funnaye mama i have
AND I FINALLY HELD HIS HAND! yay!
Saturday 9 August 2008
> 10:08:00 pm.
{edited/}
its seems like its taking up real fast
first step: some sort of a cold shoulder second step: you will ignore me third step: you will avoid me forth step: you will delete everything fifth step: you will stop reading {edits/} sixth step: you will forget me
i guess, possibilities are really 0%
but will you ever do that? please dont k?
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I WANT TO SHOP SO BADLY! i want skinny jeans! i want long sleeves shirt like those from cotton on!
> 8:46:00 pm.
guess what i will do when i get super bored with the camera beside is you, like always. nothing will change the habit of mine! THIS IS WHAT I DO! the camera is super tempting to take photos of myself. so that is it. yeah, it isnt nice as the one nette did for me. but at least i tried something out with my new software, that school has asked me to buy, which is the whole collection of ADOBE CS3! , which is kinda cool! I KNOW I WAS JUST BEING EGO. but its just for fun! and i was bored ):
OMGOSH! NAT HO'S BLOG! {actually i saw it in huiling's blog} i am so going to save his blog url man! check it out man yourself http://natho.net/nblog/
watching two movies in a week was rather cool. or did i watched two shows in a day? its still the same anyway.
watched L:changed the world online and Dark Knight with mum in cinema
gosh, i love batman's motobike in the show. really cool! should watch! HIGHLY RECOMMENDED!
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PICTURES OF MY SPECKIES!
so now, i got two speckies to wear.
i changed the lens for my purple specky.
so i can choose whichever i want to wear from what clothes matches which specky!
YAY! i still my purple specky though.
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talked to ivan last night. for quite awhile.
tried so hard to put on that smile. but sry, i cant:
can i tell you something
Ibern JUSTEMO:
yeah sure
tried so hard to put on that smile. but sry, i cant:
DORCAS IS STILL LISTENING {respond to your personal message}
Ibern JUSTEMO: haha Ibern JUSTEMO: thank you.. tried so hard to put on that smile. but sry, i cant: yay! tried so hard to put on that smile. but sry, i cant: finally the haha came out! Ibern JUSTEMO: ? Ibern JUSTEMO: Why leh tried so hard to put on that smile. but sry, i cant: i just love the you "haha" tried so hard to put on that smile. but sry, i cant: i dont know if its real tried so hard to put on that smile. but sry, i cant: but still at least it came out tried so hard to put on that smile. but sry, i cant: i will still continue to make you smile through here tried so hard to put on that smile. but sry, i cant: though i cant see you smile tried so hard to put on that smile. but sry, i cant: and though we aint together anymore
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looking through friendster testi quite some time ago.
those from him. arh! dont want to talk about it anyway.
i saw one from brother and jireh. super cute one.
this one from my brother
hahaz..,my sis of mine..,nice person to chat wif..,always my first target for disturbing..,always disturb until she not happy..whaha..wad can i say abt my sis..,well she has found the "sillyboy" of her life..,which i shall not reveal who for confidential purposes..,she's noisy,irritating,can be a pain in de neck.,but well she's my sis anyway.....wads wif the sillyboy and sillygirl stuff..
this one from Jireh
whee. im nice la so ill help u write one cos im really too free. erm. shes de sister of my pal isaac. seems shes oso got de high state of nirvana ( ask ur bro wat tt means hehe ) can be rather noisy n childish but yeah shes only 13. i dun really noe her tt well but shes nice la. okok ill end here cos i dunno wat to write. take care n God Bless! ~jirk was here~
funny right? once i look at it, i just start laughing. funnaye!
Friday 8 August 2008
> 10:10:00 pm.
common tests are over. what a relieve. wasnt that bad afterall. at least i have one or two days of rest before getting myself to mug for majors. going to be tiring and stressful. but still, i have to train myself to be discipline. now, i am totally not. leaving everything to last minute. and its really sucks. shouting all the way in tutorial room " die already" doesnt work. climbing from wall to wall in tutorial room doesnt work either. hey, i really did that la. i sat on the ledge by the window trying to get things into my head. but, its in the room, not outside. if its outside, I WILL DEFINITELY SCREAM MY HEAD OFF!
#note:i actually scream in front of the examinor la! opps!
before common test, "hey, i sit behind you" all this sentence was like repeating everywhere i went. but i tell you, it really hard to copy. i tried to sneak in papers into my pencilcase. but i know still can see. so in the i didnt. didnt even get to copy la!
WK was like asking me how was it at the end of both test. i said okay. 'cos both of us was totally lost for database. serious. he scared he was the only one. so i had to scream at "STILL HAVE ME LA!" seriously, was funny. i started laughing when he just stared at me. funny! i was actually kinda worried for com skills. i totally wrote crap, but of course, with common sense. which, my mum happily said i didnt have common sense. how saddening la! i still laugh anyway. how sadist can i be?
and MURU! for goodness sake, stop pointing middle finger at me! trying to make me point at you! NO WAY MAN!
now, i shall let photos do the talking. as you know, pictures speak louder than words {wk always says that!}
{events may not be in sequence, but i will try}
my darling's wedding with aloisius!
go this webpage to see the photos
somehow or rather, i cant save any of the photos into my lappy.
christopher made it into flash. WT!
please click on the correct one. is serene and aloisius 26th july08
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