things do change.
sometimes i really wish that you will continue to tell me whats going on in your life.
like we always do. but now, as friends.
sometimes i really wish that you will continue to talk to me.
like how you always do. but now, as friends.

to me, its hard being friends. too hard.
but what am i to do? i cant really do much, but go with the flow.

now, i dont know why. its seems that so many things are troubling me. i just feel like crying all out. but who can cry to now? sometimes, i really wish i could cry it out to sweets{i dont know why i type this, but you are still} but, i know i cant.
now, at this point of time, i really want to cry it out all to God, for he will provide.
things going through in life, right now. isnt the way i wanted at all.

peiying knew something was wrong. she asked. she was there to listen. though she wasnt that close to me, but i knew she cares alot. THANKS.

sometimes, things happen for some reason.
sometimes, you wouldnt even know the reason.

after listening to that song by HONG JUNYANG 难道
i really stood by the the window and cried it all out. cos i could really feel my heart cracking into two pieces. and everything seems so grey now. i couldnt erase anything that relates to you. even if i try hard to not think about, its just temporary.

always wanting to say those words to you. but the situation now, its hard.
sry, mum. i have to say this. i still love him. and its hard for me to let go.

now, i have to start learning to be understanding and stop hurting people.
i feel like i am hurting people without noticing it. SO SO SO SORRY! REALLY! ):

God, teach me to be understanding. teach me to be strong. teach me to overcome things with a positive mind. sometimes i just feel so weak, it feels like i am going to fall anytime. Lord, help me to stand firm in any circumstances. no matter how difficult each obstacle i go through in life, teach me to seek inner peace and go through things with a clear positive mind.