sometimes i really wanted to know why. i am just so curious to know about everything.
can you please tell me why do you still care so much? yes, i love the way you care and i want it to continue. but the point is, why?
can you also tell me why still keep the photos? i wish you could keep it for as long as possible. but soon, you will have to get rid of those.
you said you still care. but i dont see why cant you talk me first instead of me? it makes me think even deeper, those six steps i wrote.
i wish you could continue to draw for me. your drawings are the best. its long since you drew for me. its long since i see your drawings.
trying so hard to be strong. but inside i feel weak. trying so hard to smile. but all the more i feel even worse trying so hard not to cry. but its just too painful trying so hard to not think about. but its just too difficult trying so hard to move on. but i am just too confused
didnt know going through this, was so tough and painful. you should know its hard too. four years. dont you think its hard?
i wish there would be a happy ending but who knows? the happy ending might just stop here and will never ever continue.
no matter how hard i cry, no matter how much i cry, things will never be the same as before.
some times i actually asked myself, did i actually regret getting into a relationship which could last this long? my answer: yes and no
yes, why? i didnt know this kind of thing would happen. which i actually didnt want it to happen to me.though it happen to him, somehow or rather we got back. cos i knew i wasnt so sure about it. and right now, when i was kinda sure, this happens right smack in front of me.
no,why? meeting this guy was rather fortunate. loving me for four years. and yes, i love him for four years too and please, i am still counting. he didnt actually stop for once. he being so understanding and was able to tolerate all my nonsense and anger. i guess, he's one of a kind. i just find him a cutie, cos he does things that could really cheer me up. doing silly stuff, just to see me smile. was there when i needed him so badly, also when i was in trouble. even when i had problems, he was just there to give me a listening ear. he was there, when i cried, real hard. he is just my little sunshine in my life. its like he completes me.
now, no more sunshine. its just me,myself and i now.
Lord, grant me strength in me to carry on.
sometimes you only realise how important things are once its gone somehow, time will tell.
