> 11:46:00 pm.
i just feel like i dont have the right to be happy or sad at this moment.
i knew something would happen if i would ever ever EVER step into fairfield again.
memories are so much like water. they flow. so memories just flow back. back into my mind.just make me feel like crying. BADLY.
at school, i saw the whole school at field. i knew i had a chance to see you. thats 'cos i miss you. eventually, i did. in a polite way, YES I DID WAVE. i cant just ignore. the moment i see you, automatically, i just felt like waving. so i did.
pictures taken everywhere,every single minute, i wanted to catch a glimsp of you. when everything ends, the moment i saw you left. i really wanted to grab you hard. but i knew i cant. i was just standing there, hoping you could turn back. to look at me, 'cos i saw you left. it didnt happen. it seems that all the answers were just written on your back.
walking back to jumbo, was just so amazing.
just one turn to the right, and things happen just came back to mind.
how lovely. but will all these repeat again? no one knows. not even me.
i always wish this was a lie. but who would lie about this? DUMBASS?!
taking a bus back, just close my eyes. i already feel like crying.
why must things happen this way? WHY?!
you left me questions that only you could answer.
i wish to call you SWEETS again
thats 'cos you are just too sweet
i wish you could be my BIG BIG TIGER again
thats 'cos you are always there to protect me
i wish you could be my BIGGEST BLANKET again
thats 'cos you are able to give me the warmest hugs ever
i wish you could be my tissue paper again ( i know its funny, but i mean it)
thats 'cos you are always there when i cry hard
i wish to hold sweaty palms of yours again
thats 'cos those were the hands that wipe away my tears
i wish i could lie on your shoulder again
thats 'cos i know i could always lean on you
can i still have strawberry lollipops?
you told me you still cared. thanks. but i dont know why.
you said you still keep those pictures. i didnt know why either.
(i dont know about now, maybe your friends talked to you about it)
hwing says"i think he still ________."
she maybe right, but who knows. only you.
i dont even know if i am clinging on or letting it go. just stuck in the middle. so not knowing what to do. my heart aches, still. but what can i do?
sry, but you left something
YOUR NAME CARVED DEEP IN MY HEART that i could hardly remove it.
you said you will sms me first. but still, it was me.
YES, i still miss you. like crazy.
i wish i could see you again. as soon as possible.
monday( dinnner) i dont know. i wish i could.
i dont know if you are still reading my blog. if you read this already, you can ignore. but i am telling you now, every single word, came deep down from my heart. ):
DORCAS, YOU GOT TO TRY NOT TO CRY ANYMORE! ):
i know dwarfs will be there,
they know how much i miss him.
they know how much i love him.
credit to NETTE!
