busy studying for exams. was super last minute la. nothing really got into my head when i study. sigh. but al least i tried to study. i was actually wondering how to study java. it was fully memory work. exam papers were all standard. so just read through. bad day though. sigh.
190808tuesday
went to school early to study java with the rest of them. tried memorizing all the work. siao la. its alot. trying to understand is worse too. just memorize la. didnt want to care much already. i was busy thinking of something else la. seriously. sigh. 2bucks nuggets for lunch. how unhealthy! ):
it was time to head for examination hall! scary can. is like O levels lah. maybe worse. walked in, my heart jumping out already. ): my table was nearing the front. table 5, so ITS THE FRONT! its worse. last time was table 12, now 5! SCARY MAN!
didnt actually know what i was writing. i just write whatever i could remember. some questions, i just wrote rubbish. i dont know whether right or wrong. I JUST WRITE! suddenly, left one question, i was thinking of the question. i was thinking of something else. maybe others will know what. I WROTE HIS NAME ON MY PAPER! for i dont know what reason. just that its the other way round. how dumb can! i dont know why i wrote his name la k. i cant think anymore, i dont know what to write on the paper. and i had to leave. really had to leave. the pain was so unbearable. excruciating pain. i cant even stand up straight.
on the way back home, i just counldnt take it anymore. so painful. ):
STUDY FOR COS!
200808wednesday
cos paper. decided not to go early to study with the rest. went down to school a little later. studied at home and in the train and before the paper started.
i forgot what i memorize, so just try my best write out those i remembered. sigh! bad paper. everyone was like "die la die la" same here.
decided not to have lunch with the rest. so i headed back home on my own again. YES,AGAIN.
210808thursday
went to nettes place to study. but we didnt even touch our books!
blockquote from nette.
today has been a veryvery fun day, but extremely unproductive. still, i'm thankful. being surrounded by my dwarfs lately made me realise just how much i miss their company, and how easily they can set me right. spending time with dorcas today just reminded me so much of the fairfield days, and it just cheered me up instantly. we talked about all the stupid, childish things we used to do, and did all the stupid, childish things all over again
anyway, check out all the zi lian photos dorcas took of herself at my house! she so funny you know. she didn't even wake me up when she reached me house. she went straight underneath my bed to catch up one HER OWN beauty sleep. HAHA! so when the frog prince called me around ten to one, and i realised the time, i wondered why dorcas hadn't called me yet. when i talked and everything, she didn't respond, so i thought i was alone in my room! after i hung up, i discovered that i received NINE messages. two from dorcas, and the rest from froggy. one of dorcas' messages was, "NETTE! wake up! dorcas waiting for you. in your room. downstairs. lol" and i was like, "HUH?! sure not!" i looked down and i COULDN'T SEE EVEN A SINGLE STRAND OF HAIR! i thought she was trying to be funny, so i called her. goodness gosh, didn't hear the vibration and no ringtone either! i only realised that she was in my room when she said, "HELLO?" and i was so shocked! that stupid woman! haha. she said that she didn't say anything cause she was sleeping. and she picked up the phone knowing that it was me! stupid lar, boyfriend! hahahha!
she introduced me to a new anime called SHUGO CHARA!!! it's rocking,
rocking cute! and veryveryvery funnyyyy! =D and we watched while eating our kfc
lunch, which was really superrrr filling. check this out! tigger's watching
toooo!
my mum was so random. she suddenly gave me this pack of eyeshadow even
though i don't use make up. we discovered the mirror and did this:
thanks nette! I WAS HAPPY TOO. just being with you is just so comfortable.
I LOVE YOU! {kicks norman away! (x}
220808friday
ROWING COMPETITION DAY!
woke up at like 5.30 and rush down to clementi at 6.45. in the end, only both yulian and i reached first. then ben. the rest was like later than us! ROAR. esp wenxi. she said 6.45, she herself late la!
took a taxi down to jalan buroh where the rowing associates is. we had to help the taxi driver find the way. cos, we all dont know the way. THANKS TO DORCAS SIN we made it there in less then 10 bucks! HEH. but actually the taxi driver said he went wrong way, so he off the meter. HOW NICE!
went on some floating platoon. super cool. get to hold the boat once. ONCE! i just love climbing up and down the divider. tried, suntanning! funnaye. tried sleeping too! i lie on the divider to suntan and sleep. but super hot, i cant take it anymore.
lunched there
walked out
walked to bus stop
bused to clementi
ate lunch again at sumo!
then head to nette's place
the four of us fell asleep in her room till 6.30! FUNNAYE!
230808saturday
home the whole day.
lunched with brother at westmall. BURGER KING. fatty!
came home and studied
sigh. its boring!
240808sunday
church ; membership class
came home and slept till 6.30.
what a pig la.
tried studying. useless.
TODAY
had math exam. was kinda good. can do. but not all. i dont understand the question! but i just try whatever they give la. sat for the whole 2 hours la. cant believe it. other papers was like after one and a half hours i walk out already.
class went to celebrate yukai's bday.
i didnt go. ): didnt tell my mother anyway. so, its best to head home.
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last tuesday, i told yulian i missed him and wrote this to me:
Hey girl, what is the matter you're crying your heart out again
Don't lie girl, this was not some accident, your bruises they give you away.
Your face sighs in shades of purple, your eyes a story of pain
Walk away, you're worth more than he'll ever realize, baby walk away.
Spare yourself this pain cant you see that he's not worth it?
You're not mean to be treated this way, baby walk away.
You say that you really love him, you say that he'll notice someday
But your face still sighs in the purple, your eyes tells a story of shame, walk away
You're worth more than he'll ever realize baby walk away, spare yourself this pain,
Cant you see that he's not worth it?
You've been waiting for his love for so many years
well girl, you may not live to see that day.
baby walk away. your not meant to be treated this way.
baby walk away. baby walk away. baby walk away.
i miss you and i love you, i really do
maybe those words that you use to love, is a hate now.
dont care whether you will read or not, i will still write.
maybe till one day, it fades away. {maybe it wont and i dont want to}
i dont know. sigh ):
i cant help it, you just way to deep inside.
sigh, i just cant click well with the others nowadays
i really felt alone. worse than secondary school.
with dwarfs in other schools and was left alone by HIM!
everything just gone worse just within months. MONTHS!
I JUST HATE 2008! ):
i really want to say this to the whole congragation,
"You are the God whom i love and whom i want to follow"
but do i have the faith and confidence that this is the right time to go through this affirmation?
