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Saturday, 28 June 2008

> 9:10:00 pm.

260608thursday
training. yesh! was rather slack. maybe because there isnt many ppl. so what we did was swim 3K. which was 60 laps of 50metres. WHAT A GREAT ACCOMPLISHMENT MAN! thanks to the flippers. make me move faster and further. but give me blisters! ): when i took it off, i tried swimming but it feels like i am not moving at all! finished late. so i reached home late. and i miss tmy channel 8,9 o clock show!

270608friday
met up with group members to do project again. short one. then cheekit went to play pool and i followed him. also went to see the ice skating ring to check out. cheekit played pool for one hour. so i stayed with him for an hour so i can go meet pauline to go school together for gb.

met pauline at the mrt station. den we went off to dover. cheekit soon decided to go vivo to walk by himself. ahahaha. so we 3 took the train together. hahas. but pauline and i stopped at dover la. I SAW THAT PERSON! the one who attended photo course with me. hahaha. what coincidence man!

GB, HOW I MISS GB! its long since i went back for gb already. finally back to help. YESH! i miss fairfield too.

280608today
SWIMMMING WITH DWARFS TODAY. only me and yulian swam la! LOL.
i was early again at nette's house. so while waiting fot the rest to come. i fell asleep! we started swimming late. and we went to heritage view to play with the slide and swing! came home after that!

thats all for today.
watching Tree Of Heaven(again!) instead of doing work! tsk

Friday, 27 June 2008

> 12:31:00 am.

最愛の人、私は逃す

Thursday, 26 June 2008

> 3:04:00 pm.

PAPA LEFT FOR FISHING ALREADY! ):
why papa has to leave us and go fishing?
I WANNA GO TOO!

i am leaving too! FOR SWIMMING TRAINING! ):
hahaha. i know i was being lame.
so PARDON ME! (x

>i will come home and blog again!

Wednesday, 25 June 2008

> 8:43:00 pm.

YAY! i changed my blogskin. i kinda love this skin. its simple. (:

time flies and its already wednesday. a common test week. though i am done with all my common test, i am left with projects plied up. sometimes i really feel so not discplined to get things done. all i do was slack and slack and slack.

GOD, i need you.

220608sunday

there was cell. mark talked about passion. passion about things we like to do and how we could be able serve in church with our passion. like the way Paul said in Colossians 1:24 - something(i forgot!) this really got me thinking. i really dont know what my passion was. music? nah. i cant play any instrument or sing. so i guess i cant do it either. sports? just thinking what can i serve with this passion. all i told mark was my passion was design. i really love it and all i could say was that cos it was my turn. how could i serve with this passion, i really didnt know. mark told me he will ask adeline to look for me if she needed help in designing stuff. i was okay with it. (: then it was service. i couldnt really hear what the speaker was saying! he always speaks chinese and now he speaks english. i cant hear the words! soon i fell asleep! leti was busy playing games and suddenly she asked me a question "are you awake?" i just woke up and just look away. haha. she knew i was sleeping. after service, went over to have lunch with churchies. my lunch was 5 bucks! can you believe it! hahaha. ate alot la! benita push all the food to me and i had to finish it myself. left with papa&momo to get fishing hooks with uncle john and aunty jo. they are going fishing again. MY HANDS ARE GETTING ITCHY,PAPA! headed home soon!

and and and I SIGN UP FOR HEARTS AFLAME!

230608monday

common test. maths. i really hope i can do well. really pray for good grades.

training. yes! training. common test week still train. ): was indecisive on whether to swim or not. in the end i went. lucky i went. training was rather fun. hahaha. we all had fun! (: bready again!!!(after training of course) and headed home to study for test again.

240608tuesday

common test. digital media & design. i think i will fail. cant remember what i studied! sigh. whatsmore, i cried. YES, I CRIED. others couldnt do it either. how stupid to cry. sigh. joethy came and encourage me again. its always her. and its always me who crys. thanks joethy. i appreciate your encouragement. came home upset! zhiping too. she has to go back to china. ):

250608TODAY

project discussion with maties. yep. didnt really progress much. cos i tried getting away. by watching shows and stuff. cheekit send me a YULE to my mp3 and i was watching the whole time. how naughty can i be? saw a few fairsians. tried watching other show while cheekit play his maple. but i cant watch. how irritating can that be! ): soon i headed home while cheekit when to play his basketball arcade game.

i wish i could have this in my room!!! MOSIAC(is this how its spell?) LOVEEE!

nette send this just now! HOW SWEET CAN SHE BE?! (x LOVEEEE!

>click to enlarge bah!

its the zoo pictures! (:

i will update on zoo as soon as i get hold of all the pictures! then i can mix my pictures and nette's pictures to be on my blog! YAY!
have to wait my love!

PROJECTS ARE GETTING ON MY NERVES. 4 more! and school is starting soon! some started already.

sometimes i wish i had more time.
when i thought about this, it reminds me one part on what Pastor Tony was saying in church camp. "What no time? We all have the same time, 24 hours. We always say no time for this no time for that. But its not we dont have time, is just that we dont put our hearts to it."He related it to quiet time. but it really help me to relate it to my school work. if i had the heart to do my school projects, i know i will be able to finish it good and quick. its just i lack the heart and discipline to do it.

GOD, give me the discipline and heart to get things done right and quick. thank you for Pastor Tony too!

Saturday, 21 June 2008

> 11:21:00 pm.

woke up rather early to have breakfast with family at chinatown market. then mum and dad went to the market while brother and i sat somewhere to wait for them. after marketing, we went to labrador park to walk. yep. the sun was super hot! we sat and talk talk talk. soon we left for tyr warehouse to get my swimming costume. i bought 3 for i dont know what reason! lol. thats alot. soon we headed home. came home to get my DMD project done. done halfway, dad called home to get us down for lunch. how random could he be. and i was in the middle of completing my work! anyway, came home and completed it! OH YES! wanted to study for DMD test. but wasnt in a mood and was rather tired. slept for a while before leaving for dinner again.

we went to ppl's house to have bbq. i can tell you. its rather boring. just eat eat and eat! i am going to get fat after all these eating. lol. had mashmellows at the end. LOVEEE! hahaha. it melts like chocolate. I WANT TO TRY FONDUE! never tried that before. YAY!

thats all! WAIT! i can show you guys my DMD project.

>click to enlarge

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Friday, 20 June 2008

> 10:42:00 pm.

190608thursday
i was up early to get my butt to school to do my DMD project. spend alot of time doing it. trying to make it nice and lovely. asked nette for some inspirations. but talking through msn, its really hard. of course, partner and i spent the whole afternoon. re-do re-do and RE-DO! sometimes its really irritating. but my love for DMD brought the spirit back! HOW GREAT! i just love playing with photoshop. LOVEEE! my other classmates were doing their own projects. so the whole tutorial room was rather havoc. with screaming(maybe not), LAUGHTER AND MUSIC made really really noisy! soon it was time for me to go for training. before that power tripped or either they off the power! lucky i saved my work. cos i was running through electricity instead of battery. how lucky was that!

training for them was rather tough. i was sitting down doing my own work cos i was having period! HOW TERRIBLE! i wish i could train with them! hahaha. melissa said my name is really cool and unique. THANK YOU MAMA!
captain: "aye, why you not swimming?"
dorcas: "(paused to think what to say) err. i having that thing..."
captain: " OHHHHH!"
others: " rubbish leh you!"

came home and shower. dinner. den was back to DMD. mama looked to fascinated, she sat beside me and watch me to my project. she stared till she was sleepy and was time for her to go to bed. and i slept at 1! sometimes mama can be cute, she gets interested in many many cooly cooly things! HAHAHA! i just love my mama the way she is! but not when she is angry. she may become the scariest monster you have ever seen. maybe you never seen a monster before! den NVM! hahaha.

200608TODAY!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY MY DEAR, SERENE!

woke up rather late. suppose to wake up at 7.30. in the end, i woke up at 8.40. slept through the alarm. how smart can i be? hahaha. kinda rushed here and there to get myself out of the house to go JE library. i thought i would be late. but others were later then me. reached when the library just open. i called yulian and both of us were whispering through our tiny devices called the handphone. didnt expect myself to hear yulian whisper. cos i am a little deaf. hahaha. saw her two guy friends. they were using lappy! since yulian brought her lappy. i borrowed and see see what was in her lappy. PHOTOS! hahaha. many many. soon later, we studied while waiting for the rest to come. chris came. but we continue studying. by the time hwing came. we all wanted to go have lunch. cos yulian,belly and i were super hungry. yulian's stomache growled very loud befor belly came. both yulian and i laughed till our stomaches hurt like crazy! hahahaha. had LJS. yummy with cheese! then i went to buy ting ting tang. it was love love love. then went back to study again. full of laughter and joy. ahahaha. studied a bit more. while i help hwing improve her drawing. started to watch ERZUO. soon everyone was going to leave! first was yulian's friend. then was hwing's bro. then was belly. then was yulian and another guy. den left both hwing and me! so both of us started watch ERMUO. then we started talking about guys liking girls. she started it! hahaha. so i just answer all her questions lor. soon it was time for all of us to head home!

sweets left for malaysia. how funny his parents could be man! last minute then they told him they are going malaysia. its like a surprise. HOW CUTIIE! how my parents would surprise me like that! HAHAHAHA. we were talking about going holidays together with family or without. then i asked him when is he going to tell his parents about us. then he said he think they know already. i insist that he should go ask whether they knew. he suddenly ask me go ask for him. like i knew his parents. hahaha. soon we stopped sms-ing. maybe he reached malaysia side. how cool to travel at night!

how my sweets could be so cute!
sweets: "dorcas, would you be my girlfriend?"
dorcas: "YES,I WILL.(:"
i dont know why he ask me this when i am alrady his girlfriend! HE'S JUST SUCH A CUTIE!

Wednesday, 18 June 2008

> 10:37:00 pm.

i miss you. for sure. i wish life wasnt like that at all.

when can i see you again?
when can i hug you again?
when can i hold you hand again?
when can i lie on your shoulders again?
when can we go out again?

i really want to walk that Southen Ridges.
looking at the weather nowadays, i doubt i could walk that Southen Ridges.
i wish i could walk it with you. ):

tml meeting up with classmate to do project. yep. actually hate to get off the house to do projects. i dont mind doing it with secondary friends. but now is nyp classmates. i dont think i will enjoy. sigh. i got to get use to it. BUT STILL I MISS THE FAIRFIELD SPIRIT.

sigh

> 2:07:00 pm.

I AM IN LOVE WITH MY NIKON D40x!

> 12:57:00 pm.

i guess i am suppose to do this. THANKS TO NETTE! roar

1. What do you think an ideal best friend should be like?
i dont know. maybe someone that i can trust and lends a listening ear. i really dont know. this still brings me down to DWARFS and most of all,GOD.

2. If you have a dream come true, what would it be?
ohhh, goodness. THIS IS ON INTERESTING QUESTION! cos i dont know. maybe, become a professional photographer, professional graphic designer.

3. Who's life would you want to takeaway most?
basically no one. i didnt offend anyone right? DID I?! hope not. i love everyone around me. if i really takeaway someone's life, wouldnt i be charged for murder?!

4. What would you do with a billion dollars?
A BILLION DOLLARS? did i just marry TIGER WOODS? lol. jk!
a billion is alot! seriously. maybe i would keep 30% to myself to travel and buy my own stuff. 70% to charity, orphange, and china(kunming) that my church adopted.

5. Describe yourself in three words.
blur. HAHAHA alot. quiet cum shy. (is that counted? i feel so thicked skin to answer this)

6. Which is more blessed, loving someone or being loved by someone?
BEING LOVED BY SOMEONE! i could really feel the love when someone loves me deeply. wouldnt you feel the same way too?

7. What's the one wish you'll make this very moment?
to be much more closer to the almighty one.

8. Is there anything that has made you extremely happy?
seeing my girlfriend! seeing DWARFS AND BOYFRIEND would make it much better!

9. Do you believe in ghosts?
i guess so. there are goodies and badies right? i prefer the goodies. but badies, dont come and haunt me. goodies will protect me! HA!

10. If the person you like secretly is already attached, what would you do?
i cant really do much right? the person i like has already liked someone else. but i believe God will send me one who is better. someone God wants me to be with.

11. Would you like to confess to someone you love by yourself, or through your friends?
by myself! i find that its the proper way. since i like that person, why not just say it myself? its true that its embarrassing and for me i am scared of rejections. but you cant keep it to yourself and at least the other person knows. and maybe some day that person dumped the previous gal for you! you may not know. HAHAHAHA!

12. Who are currently the most important people to you?
family, dwarfs, boyfriend, churchies, and of course not forgetting the one up above looking down at us, GOD

13. What kind of person do you think the person who tagged you is?
ANNETTE! thats my girlfriend! HA! its fun being with her. we could really go high. she lends a listening ear. and she gives advices. with her laughter, i could be even happier with her. she is like my little sunshine! I LOVE HER! haha!

14. Would you rather be single and rich or married but poor?
married and poor. whats more important in life is not money, but the happiness you have found in the family you are in. with my(future) husband and kids, thats enough to make my whole life worth and happy.

15. What is the first job you wanna take once you graduate from school?
i dont know. graphic designer? something to do with my course(it has to be)

16. What's one thing you hate most yet you can't change?
lying.

17. How would you rate the perfection of you life now? On the scale of 1 to 10.
i guess it would be 7. there is so many ups and downs in life. how could it be 10? those up in heaven would be 10 as they are with God.

18. Among your friends, who do you think is/are the most similar with you?
eh? i dont know. everyone is different in the way God made us. besides the two eyes, one nose one mouth, two ears which are similar. I AM TALKING ABOUT INSIDE, NOT THE OUTSIDE

19. What do you think makes you stand out from the others?
blurness? MY UNBLINKABLE EYES!(joshua, jireh and andrew got fascinated about) i dont know.

20. Do you like your house now?
DEFINITELY. with my family, I LOVE MY HOUSE! with fun and laughter everyday, nothing would be better. and my lovely warmth bed with tigger sleeping with me everynight. LOVEEEE!

Tuesday, 17 June 2008

> 9:25:00 pm.

I MISS BROTHER! but he would be home tml!

160608monday
went to school for maths optional class to ask questions. soon after that went to meet belly! went back to fmss to collect our graduation cert! HOW BEAUTIFUL! hahas. wanted to stay in school longer. but sadly we cant. i miss the courtyard! i want to go back there again! went to dover for sumptious lunch! den was off to belly's place to study! BUT,we didnt study! belly was watching movie and i was watching tv and i suddenly fell asleep! how smart.

as i sit by Jumbo bus stop, little things from fairfield. be it boyfriend or dwarfies.
boyfriend remind me of the times we spent there just waiting for the bus to take me home.
dwarfies remind me of the times we spent at nette's house cos i had to always take bus from there.
all this little things remind me of FAIRFIELD!

came home quite late. finally boyfriend sms me. i told him everything.

170608tuesday
ZOO WITH NETTE! how better can that be! i just so love being with nette. WE CAN GET SO HIGH! even when its not our first time to the zoo! next time we shall go to the bird park man! HAHAHAHAHAHA. it will be chao fun man! met up with her friends cos her classmates came to the zoo too. lol. but still $16.50 is just so worth! we spend the whole day okay!

i shall let the pictures do the talking!
but i have to wait till nette send me first! ha!
so gotta wait!

Saturday, 14 June 2008

> 11:24:00 pm.

spend my day with lovely bel! at hollandbk. YES! STUDYING. i tried what i could do. but still was distracted by all the things around me. sigh. i cant study. tsk.

studied till about 6 and time to go with family for dinner. but before that send brother to vivo to catch movie with jireh. den left the 3 of us to go makan. and definitely my fave. STINGRAY AND FRIED RICE AT AV! totally love.

went over to see mr ng. ASPIRE HUB NEW TUITION CENTRE IS SUPER BIG! i miss the times we had pizzas! and many laughters. THANKS MR NG FOR TEACHING ME! (:

came back home to get my specs done! yep one screw is much bigger than the other. next time i should use a bolt or nut already. hahaha.

did maths. but still not done. I CANT REMEMBER A SINGLE THING CAN! sigh. forget it.

I WANT YOU BACK! can you at least talk to me?
for many times i beg you.
i really dont want cold wars
maybe i was just too pampered and spoilt

drowning with tears

PROJECTS ARE KILLERS
nyp lecturers, you guys are rather crazy at this course!
5PROJECTS AT ONE GO?! i repeat 5 PROJECTS!
I STILL HAVE COMMON TEST TO STUDY!!!

PROJECTS TO DO?!
-Personal Development
-Communication Skills
-Database Fundamentals
-Digital Media Design
-Java(cannot make it)

>it's biscuits!

Friday, 13 June 2008

> 8:28:00 pm.

when i needed you, you werent there.
when i didnt need you, you werent there too.

CAN SOMEONE PLEASE GO WATCH NARNIA WITH ME?
CAN SOMEONE PLEASE GO WALK THE TREE TOP WALK WITH ME?
i just wish it was you, who could be the one who ask.
and wish to have a photo with you.

he never he never he never CALL!

from now on i wont ask anymore things. wont want to tell you anything. cos you didnt.

all i wanted was you to myself. but instead friends was first.
MAYBE I WAS JUST TO SELFISH. ):

today was rather boring. ):
what am i doing??! SLACKING? I HAVE TO STOP!

GOD,TEACH ME TO BE DISCIPLINED!

{edit/}
sometimes i really dont know if you understand how i feel
now, i really feel like i am going to fall off your hand soon
i really want to grap you tight, but its like you are going to let go.
am i asking too much?

Thursday, 12 June 2008

> 10:59:00 pm.

went to meet up with classmates to do project. yep. didnt really do much. just discuss who do what. den we went for lunch. yep. how boring. saw many churchie ppl. hahas. as in church ppl. maybe not many. a few. which is only two. daniel and letitia. amd i saw wenjun. how cool is that!

yep training. DRAGON BOATERS STINK WHEN THEY WORK OUT! ewww!

BORING!

i miss fairfield,mylove!

Wednesday, 11 June 2008

> 9:06:00 pm.

came back from church camp and extended holiday yesterday. only extended one day la. but its good enough. at least i can get my beauty sleep. haha.

060608friday
YESH! I PON SCHOOL! haha. church was much more important than anything else. letitia grace and benita surprised me with a brownie. THEY REMEMBERED MY BDAY! how sweet!

070608saturday
church camp. TIGGER KEEPS GETTING POPPED BY ANDREWWWW. meanie!

080608sunday
church camp. SHOPPING!

090608monday
church camp and extended holiday with other friends.
joshua was so bored that he has to take tons of unglam photos of me. wierdo
SHOPPING
DINNER WAS AWESOME!

100608tuesday
SHOPPING. taking photos of me?!
the guys were so fascinated over my unblinkable eyes. :/

110608wednesday
star making in school.
SWEETS BDAY. surprised him with a slice of cake.
THANKS IAN FOR THE HELP! yaye!

#i will try to get photos up soon

thats the brownie they surprised me with!

tigger hiding under the blanket!