really dont want to say it out. maybe i really cant say it. cos the rest would be able to read it. i mean my classmates. i really dont want them to know. maybe they will question me after reading this. i bet azizi would ask. i think. i dont know.
but nette, chris and sweets really could understand what i had gone through. chris told me not to emo. nette told me not be sad. sweets told me not to cry. i was such a meanie and told him not bother about me. I WAS SUCH A MEANIE!
i really cant get it off my mind. i cried terribly that day when i suddenly thought of those slightest things. I REALLY MISS MY LITTLE FRIENDS.
i really feel like talking to cheryl about this when i meet her on friday during break. i really hope its just me and her. i dont know why i had this feeling of telling her this when i dont even know how is she look like, or who is she. i really hope its God's calling for me to tell her what is happening and at least she could help me. the thing is that i am afraid i would break down in front of her while telling all of those to her.
God, guide me along. i really dont know what to do.
