had gb exco meeting in the morning. it was quite okay working with jocelyn and hui shi. working on the camp which is starting next monday. quite excited about it. after exo meeting. i was bombed by wenxi and hwee eng. with what?! WATER BOMB! thats so retarded. went home soaking wet. couldnt even sit properly.

ALSO! had dinner with the whole class. and mr ganesan came. but he was late. dont really want to elaborate about this. its quite sad. thanks shengwei for being there for me, trying to hear what was going on with me. the rest didnt care except a few like huiling pauline and maybe siew yi. thanks guys.and ivan too! trying to comfort me. butsry for not telling earlier what was going on with me what about the rest? bothering only about themselves. nah,its okay. maybe its time to adabt.

EVERYTHING IS TURNING OUT TO BE MY WORST NIGHTMARE
whats going on with me? is it me or them? the feeling that i long forgotten has gotten back into me. like as if i was possessed with some kind of a spirit. feeling so sad and irritated almost about eveything. i just wish i could get this feeling out of me. its hurting me badly. REAL BADLY! dwarfs are leaving me out again. LEFT OUT. thats the feeling i am feeling right now. okay. they finding job together. alright. thats it. i even wanted to ask if i can go with them. but whats the use. they are waiting for the call already. did i do the wrong thing by not going with them to get a job? but i promised ivan that we will go out together that day. den today i didnt even know they went to find a job. they told me they were working at some place i dont know. i didnt want to hear anymore. i know what it meant. its find leaving me out. i was even thinking of not going to the dwarfs chalet. but it was a promise to myself that i will go. since its the dwarfs. i guess i have to let it go. leave it to God to guide me wherever i go. if its going to be like this. den its alright. i will go on with it naturally.

quarreled with dad

God, help me out with this situation that i have with my friends and my dad. i dont know what i have done wrong to my friends. but i know what i have done wrong to my dad. forgive me for not respecting him because i was not in the right mood. Lord, as for my friends. tell me what i have done wrong towards them and correct me in anyway. if its the wrong feeling that i am feeling right now. also help to change that feeling and have a better relationship with my friends.for what you said "Love your enemies." but they are not my enemies. they are my friends. teach me ways that i can have better relationship with them. that i wont have that feeling in me anymore. In your most precious almighty name, AMEN!

sigh! relived after saying that prayer. God will hear this prayer and helped me out through this problems i am going through.i will be nice and go find a job with huiling and not bother about if i am working with dwarfs or not. hope will remain as dwarfs and forever the dwarfs.

MY LIFE ITS GOING TO BE TRANSFORMED 301107 to 021207
God will see me through this! God will guide me along! i know He will!