someone misses you! someone wants to buy books together with you! WHA! i wonder who! i just wish i could know who! someone evn has a great time with you. WHO?! i just wish i could know who! i am not going to bother anymore. if that someone misses you badly, what about me? maybe hurt? i dont even know! all i could do is wish that i didnt existed. not even born to the earth. but i cant help it. GOD wants me here. on this earth to praise him and love him. and respect him. all i want to be is to be closer to him. and closer to you. but why is it not working?! BOTH!

i just wonder why cant it be that? that refers to something. you wont want to know. that red gloves. just like that red gloves made by ******. so warmth in there. k know reality is different from dreams. but all i want to know is that will dreams turn into reality? thats all i want to know. nothing else.

everywhere hurts like CRAZY. it wont go off! its not even healing! just because of flat foot i cant walk for long. i cant even walk for half an hour. my hand is healing but i actually cant do drill for two weeks. and i am insisting of it. from 7 dec to 21 dec! i cant even do drill. but i am not going to care if its going to hurt i will just have to bear with it. just like the one in me. MY HEART! <3

just too lagging in drill! sigh! i really really want to catch up. and really do it for GOD. let him know that i am doing it for him. AND TO WIN THAT GOLD FOR 3RD GB!