just came back from OBS. kinda fun la. first day was like "I WANT TO GO HOME! I WANT TO GO HOME." cos there got LOADSmosquito! and i got many bites la. SAND FLIES! eeeek! then today was the last day i was like " I DONT WANT TO GO HOME! I DONT WANT TO GO HOME! " total insane la. i was like do i want to go home of they there. but i rather go home la. got my bed. sleeping in tents not that bad is just the tree branches are in the way. SO HARD TO SLEEP LA! every hour is like i have to wake up just to turn my body, stupid la.

I LOVE MY GROUP MAN! NILA UTAMA! aka WILD BOAR GANG! had so fun with everyone. our group have lots of teamwork la. i am not being thick skin hor. its the truth! MY GROUP TOTALLY RAWKS! but sometimes i get SUCKED UP with some people. who does not know to think. so marilene and i were gossipping la. i know it was bad la. but i cant help it right.

everything was okay la in OBS. its just that i cried twice. i nearly cried in front of annette cos i told annette every thing. and i cried in front of the boys in my group. because of something. brendan was like " go talk to him la! " i was like " why? i talk to him nicely. then like that la." i was very pissed already la. too many things too handle. i have to handle my relationship with him and the troubles having at home. and i have to face with that DAMN truth. why must it be like that. why cant every thing be just so normal. i just tried forgetting everything during the camp. I TRIED. but i couldnt. everything, every trouble was still in my mind. i just cant get them off my mind. and with that stupid high element thing. i cried again for no reason. cos my hand was very painful. using my arm muscle, practically every muscle la. just to get marilene up the high element thing. i really want to finish the obstacle. so she had to keep on going cos she knows i want to finish it.

one last thing! I AM SO BURNED! bleah! x)
and i miss him too. real badly.
i really want things to get back to normal