you know what i found something that i find it very useful. i dont know whether it will be useful to you. but to me it is. i got it off from a show "恶魔在身边" . then i was thinking in the car then this few things came into my mind.

"whenever i feel like crying,
i would want to wait till on rains.
because whenever i cry,
i wouldnt want anyone to know that i am crying.
i would run out and stand under the rain,
and cry out every thing that is bothering in my heart.
i will cry as hard as i want,
because nobody will know,
whether i am crying or not.
the rain pouring on to me,
will hide my tears,
and it too will hide my sorrows and pain."

but whenever i run away from home, there is always someone worying about me. i don want him to worry about me anymore. i promised him that i wouldnt run away from home anymore. i dont want to break it because i dont wan to break his heart. because I LOVE HIM. deeply. all i would do is run to him and cry my heart out. because i know he will be there for me. besides him who will be there for me, GOD will always be with me even after death.